2 posts tagged “roses”

Show us your favorite flower.

Nothing prettier in my mind than roses and lace.  It makes me feel lost in another time, where life was much softer and the detail is so much more intricate.

Whew!!!  I got through another Valentines Day and we're both (Ben and I) still speaking! lol  I think I've mentioned before that Ben takes a very romantic approach to Valentines Day.  I don't and as much as I try, I can NEVER live up to his idea of what a great V-Day should be.  I knew I would be defeated but I still tried to make it special.  My idea is to show my family that I love them by showing them in my actions.  Ususally not too flowery or surgary sweet (that's just not who I am).  So here is how Valentines Day was at our house this year...

We were iced in, first of all.  I couldn't have gone anywhere if I did feel like it (I've been pretty sick and it's made me a little shakey and just all around yucky!).  I have a 4 wheel drive but none of them get around on ice.  All of this means that, because of my lack of planning, I couldn't go anywhere to get Ben the gift that would show my undying love for him.  SO, I stayed in with the kids.  Danielle had a friend over and that made it more exciting.  I need to mention that we still didn't have a working furnace because they couldn't get our new one out to us until Friday (which thankfully is TODAY!!!).  Our time was consumed with trying to stay warm because the wind chill was below zero!  I decided that I would FORCE myself to make a huge dinner that I knew everyone would like.  Usually this wouldn't be a problem but I had a hard time just standing up to do it.  I thought that it would show my husband that he meant a lot to me.  Plus I had already written a blogg about Ben's and my wedding song.  I meant that to show him how much he meant to me.  He didn't get it and said that he thought I was going to tell everyone how much he meant to me, so he was a little disappointed in what little I did say.  He, on the other hand brought home a BEAUTIFUL bouquet of roses and babies breath.  I also received not 1 but 2 cards proclaiming his love and respect for me.  I told him how sorry I was that I didn't do more and his response was that he wasn't "too" disappointed!  I am starting to HATE this day!  I feel like it's a set up for my failure and short-comings!  On the bright side though, he and the kids did enjoy their dinner!  I did THAT right but I sure wish I could care enough about this "fake" day to do more and plan in advance!  I feel a little guilty that I can't just look at it as a day that HE likes so much.  I guess I should put aside my own feelings and try to make it a little more special for him.  I just really think that if you can't do it all times of the year, why do it on this day?  He's a hopeless romantic and I've just not ever been able to show that side of me.  I mean, I'm a dreamer and that includes romance but I just can't pretend that a card and flowers makes my life "golden".  I just try to show it in different ways.  I think I get that from my Mom but even she sends cards and gets the kids gifts!  My dad is more schmoozey/ sappy like Ben would like me to be.  I've got some serious redeeming to do! LOL!  Now I have to figure out a way to get out of the dog house.  Those beautiful roses are sitting on my kitchen table, laughing and taunting me!