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I don't really know what to say, it's been so long.  I've just only now read all of the well wishes and prayers that all of you have sent me through some of my cousin Netta's posts and my daughter Danielle.  The pm's were amazing and I wish I had the energy to respond to everyone the way that I should. 

Here's the story in a nutshell.  I was released from the hospital after my 3rd surgery (where they took out more of my stomach and now it's the size of a walnut).  It was on my birthday, April 10.  On April 10 my stomach perforated at home.  I'm not sure what happened.  I'm so used to pain that I didn't know it was really any different than my regular pain so I waited almost too long to get to the hospital.  I waited hours.  By the time I got back there, my body was racked with poison and I was dying.  The surgeon knew I wouldn't live without surgery but he also didn't think I'd live with it.  It had only been 10 days since my last surgery and my insides were like the consistency of gum.  He didn't think I could be closed back up successfully.  There wasn't a lot of hope for me, from what I understand.  Everyone was trying to get used to the idea that I would die.

I don't know why God chose me to live.  I don't know why I'm so blessed.  All of your prayers and all of my family and friends prayers were answered.  I'm really not supposed to be here.  I'm humbled by the outpouring of love from all of you.  Thank you just isn't enough but I don't have any other words. 

I've been out of the hospital for a week now.  Today is the first day I've felt like being on the computer.  I promise to keep up with everyone as much as I can now.  I've missed all of you so much and I just can't wait to see what's going on with you.  I trust that it's been good (or at least I'm praying it's been a good life for all of you).  I love you all, and again, THANK YOU and HUGE ((HUGS))