You Have My Heart-)

I don't really know what to say, it's been so long.  I've just only now read all of the well wishes and prayers that all of you have sent me through some of my cousin Netta's posts and my daughter Danielle.  The pm's were amazing and I wish I had the energy to respond to everyone the way that I should. 

Here's the story in a nutshell.  I was released from the hospital after my 3rd surgery (where they took out more of my stomach and now it's the size of a walnut).  It was on my birthday, April 10.  On April 10 my stomach perforated at home.  I'm not sure what happened.  I'm so used to pain that I didn't know it was really any different than my regular pain so I waited almost too long to get to the hospital.  I waited hours.  By the time I got back there, my body was racked with poison and I was dying.  The surgeon knew I wouldn't live without surgery but he also didn't think I'd live with it.  It had only been 10 days since my last surgery and my insides were like the consistency of gum.  He didn't think I could be closed back up successfully.  There wasn't a lot of hope for me, from what I understand.  Everyone was trying to get used to the idea that I would die.

I don't know why God chose me to live.  I don't know why I'm so blessed.  All of your prayers and all of my family and friends prayers were answered.  I'm really not supposed to be here.  I'm humbled by the outpouring of love from all of you.  Thank you just isn't enough but I don't have any other words. 

I've been out of the hospital for a week now.  Today is the first day I've felt like being on the computer.  I promise to keep up with everyone as much as I can now.  I've missed all of you so much and I just can't wait to see what's going on with you.  I trust that it's been good (or at least I'm praying it's been a good life for all of you).  I love you all, and again, THANK YOU and HUGE ((HUGS))

 

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I-Luv-Eeyore

oh my goodness!!!

(((Hugs))) to you.

I'm so glad you are feeling better. I hope your recovery continues with no more setbacks or complications.

more ((((Hugs)))))

dallison
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I have missed you so much!!!!!!!!! I am so happy you are feeling better. Take it easy and don't over do it. It is great to see you back on vox. Love and miss ya lots.
I-Luv-Eeyore

Oh, and Happy Late Birthday!! I hope you will feel up to celebrating it 'right' soon.

You and my brother share the day. He just turned 47.

IrishLuckyLass
Thank God for miracles. You are one of them. Keeping you in my prayers. Hugs and wishes for a quick recovery!
Scooter Kitty
happy belated birthday and I'm glad to read that things are better. my thoughts are with you and your family.
shellakers
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((((HUGS)))) I've been home for a week and out of my last sugery for almost a month. So far so good. I'm still praying though. This last time scared the crap out of me.

Thank you. It's good to be back:-)

shellakers
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Back atcha girl!

I'm taking it too easy and I'm bored out of my mind. They (doctors) won't let me do very much yet. They're afraid my stomach might not be healed and could rip open again. So I spend my time on my couch. Sorry I just haven't felt up to doing to much. I'll be normal again though.

Love you so much!!!!!

shellakers
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Thank you! I completely forgot about y bday! I'm 42 and very thankful to have made it this far. It was on my birthday that they thought I'd die so I'm pretty blessed to have made it to 42!
shellakers
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You have no idea how much I appreciate your prayers! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm so happy to be back:-)
shellakers
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Thank you Scooter! I haven't celebrated my birthday or my daughter's or my husband's. I missed everybodies birthday because of that crazy hospital thing. I've got some making up to do. It's so good to hear from you! I'm glad to be back:-)
Antonia and Malley's blog

Make sure you take it easy and put your feet up. Our prayers are with you every day love Antonia, Dave and Malley xxx <3

Kelly

Happy birthday! I'm so glad that you're doing okay, although we should maybe talk about better ways to celebrate for next year.

Seriously hough, you're the stronget person I know.

sixweasels
I am so glad you are back! And I second what Kelly said about you being the strongest person I know!
Tom
Glad to have you back.
Mello
That's an incredible miracle. Welcome back to Vox! I'm glad to hear you're feeling up to it now.
LaidOutInLavender
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((((HUGS))))
Oh My Goodness!
'I'm really not supposed to be here.'
this was the line that made my tears fall. I am SO glad you are healing, I have thought about you often. BESTEST GET WELL WISHES!!!!
Cath
It was great to see your name come up on my sidebar - can't tell you how quickly I clicked on it to see what you had to say!

Glad you're doing better... euhh, that's kind of lame. Everything that I can think to type just seems inadequate after the time you've had, and the struggle you've endured. I'll just leave it at "so glad you're back." :)
Nacwolin
I am so, so glad to see this post from you! Not glad to hear you had another medical crisis, though...but so glad you pulled through.

More prayer offered as you continue to heal.
lostdwarf
((((((((((shell))))))))))
Tired Working Mom

I am so glad to see you back here. I have missed you and your posts so much. God has a plan for you .You are a survivor for sure. Sending you much loves, good vibes, and get well wishes.

Queen of Fractal Beauty
Glad to know you're still around. Get plenty of rest. We'll all still be here when you feel up to getting around to us all. No rush.
Jay
^___^

Stick around a bit longer why doncha. We're getting to the good part.
Red Pen
I've been so worried about you! It's great to hear from you and I am so glad you are doing okay. Take good care and get lots of rest. I hope you are better soon.
AngieK

You are an amazing friend and encouragement. Wonderful to hear from you again, I've been a bit worried. Keep taking it easy and healing!

Love & Prayers

Grandma-P
This is the day I've been waiting for....YOUR BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AMEN! I will pray for your continued recovery.
Marie

Thanks for dropping by to let us know how you are doing. You've been greatly missed!!!! It's just not the same without you 'round here!!

But first things first...get lots of rest!! Take good care of yourself! YOU are so important to all of us!! (((((((((Gentle Hugs and Tons of Love!!))))))))

You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

~Adah~
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I'VE MISSED YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!
i am so happy to see that all is well. i was getting kinda worried.
as marie said, it's just not the same without you around here.
i will be praying that you have a speedy and successful recovery, and that we will see more of you soon.
happy late birthday btw!!!
*hugz & kizzez & lot o' luv* ^_^!
Marty
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Its nice to read a post from you Michelle ♥♥ I think we all understand that your not up to blogging on VOX which is fine. You just get as much rest as you can so you can recover.

Im so happy all our prayers and love have kept you in our lives and it chokes me up. I just cannot imagine this place without you. I have always stay posistive you would come through this. I know your a fighter and i just respect this so much. You take good care of yourself Michelle and just remember im always thinking of you ♥♥ xxxxx

Dark Knightingale

Glad you're out and feeling better!

-Sounds like you've been through a bit of Hell.

Take it easy, and don't ignore any pains!!!

Amy Sue
What a scary ordeal..for you and your family! God must have special plans for you! Glad you're back.
Janette
I think my heart stopped at one point reading this post. VERY glad you're still here and feeling well enough to blog. Lots of hugs and lots of prayers coming your way! :)
Zola Kathryn
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Happy belated birthday, Michelle! I'm very thankful that you came out of the hospital relatively none the worse for the wear, and I'm happy to see you back on Vox! :) Still sending hugs and love your way!!

<3Z
Flamingo Dancer
How could we not care for a person such as you. You are a hero and have great work ahead of you. Rest now and get you strength back. So glad you are improving. Bless you and your family
ambookgeek
I'm so happy to see that you are here! My thoughts and prayers got out to you and your family. Happy Mother's Day!
shellakers
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Thank you for the prayers. I truly believe that's why I'm still alive. I've even had my surgeon tell me that (if you can believe a doctor would say such a thing! lol). All I can really do is keep my feet up, so that's about it. Thanks for the well wishes!
shellakers
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I TOTALLY missed your birthday and I really wanted to do something cool for it! As for my birthday... my stomach decided to split open on my actual birthday. I can't believe I almost died on my birthday. It still freaks me out! So, yes, we need to discuss other birthday options next year. lol

Thanks for saying that I'm strong, but if you could see me now, you might not think so:-) Love you Kel!

shellakers
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LOL! It's good to hear from you again. Thanks for everything!
shellakers
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Tom, it's SO good to be back! Thank you!
shellakers
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Thanks! It really is a miracle. I'm not going to lie about that! I'm not back into full swing yet, at all, but I'm getting there:-) It's good to be back.
shellakers
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Girl, I missed you! I didn't mean to make you cry but it's really true. I can't tell you how many doctors told me that I wasn't supposed to be here, judging by the medical point of view. I beat the odds (Thanks to God!). It's just so good to be back:-)
shellakers
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It's so good to hear from you too! You crack me right the hell up! lol It's so good to be back. Thant about all I have to say too:-)
shellakers
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Oh Nicole, my prayer warrior:-) God heard all of your prayers. I'm alive and I'm not supposed to be. God had other plans for me. Anyway, it's so good to be back:-)
shellakers
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((((((((lostdwarf))))))) love you girl!
shellakers
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Thank you SO MUCH Mo!!!!!

And I see we're having a baby boy??????? I can't tell you how excited I am for you!

shellakers
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Thank you! I'm being slow and I am getting too much rest for my taste, but that's all I can do:-( I'm trying to get to see what everyone's been up to but GEEZE! It's been a few months, I think, since I've been on here! lol Got a lot of catching up to do.
shellakers