A humbling experience (lesson learned)
Today, one of my nurses told me that I had such a good attitude about everything that I was going through. She said that I should start a support group for women who are going through similar issues, when I got done being sick! lol I told her that I don't think I'd be good at that because I don't have patience with people who whine and a lot of times, I hear women (and men) whine about their situations instead of trying to make the best of it. The nurse said that that was why I would be good at it. She thought I could bring things into perspective with other people. I have the attitude that my illness is just a "thing". It's really the way that I feel. We deal with what we're given and there really isn't a LOT of time to whine and feel sorry for myself. This is just the hand that I was dealt. "If not me, then who else", is kind of my motto. My bad ass attitude got put into place today.
Right after I announced how little tolorance I had with others, I went outside to smoke. While outside, I met a woman about my age. She'd snuck out also. We started talking and I learned that she was terrified because the doctors thought she had lung cancer. Her story started 5 years ago when she went to the doctor because she'd just been so tired. She was usually a high energy person. She thought maybe she was low on iron or something like that. It ends up that she had hepatitus C, the deadly kind. They'd given her 10 years to live 5 years ago. More currently, Thursday, she went to the ER because she couldn't get rid of the flu. It just wasn't going away. They ran some tests and so far they think she has lung cancer. Tomorrow, they'll do a scope on her to biopsy. If the scope doesn't work, they'll cut her chest open to biopsy that way. WOW! Instantly, I knew that God was reminding me that I didn't know how other people felt. I might have felt like this woman was whining because she went to the ER with flu symptoms. God was trying to put me in my place. I prayed for her.
On the way back up to my room, some very sad man held the elevator open for me. He got off on the same floor as I did which is the cancer floor. Out of the blue, he says "So this is the BAD floor, isn't it?". I said that I'd heard stories of it being the BAD floor (meaning cancer floor) but not everyone had cancer that was on this floor. He said that the doctors just called him because his 40 year old sister who has liver cancer had MAYBE 72 hours to live. He started crying. Now I'm thinking to myself "Ok God. I get it. I should have NEVER assumed that everyone besides me was a whiner". I am humbled.
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Lavender said what I was going to say. It amazes me how the universe has a way of putting ourselves in our place. I have had many humbling experiences.....too many times that you think I would learn! :) (I sometimes joke, in some situations, that God would be subtler if he just threw a brick at my head.)
But as much as you feel humbled, I think its good that "someone" is looking out for us so much that we are humbled because its being humbled that allows us to see in order to do good things. And you have such a big heart that encompasses more people than you realize.
((((((((((((((hugs and prayers)))))))))))))))))
Stop smoking tut tut !!!!!
Still praying for you Michelle xxx ♥
It's amazing when you think about it, isn't it? I couldn't believe how timely it was.
Thanks for the prayers again! You know I need them:-)
Probably NOT going to happen, Marty! lol "tut tut"
Thank you for your prayers. They mean so much to me!
The fact that you recognized those moments makes me think you'd definitely be good at leading a support group! Although I've only been reading you for a short time, I know you inspire me and make me think : ).
Shell...there is a difference in whining and sharing. The people you met today were sharing and you're compassion for them shows the true nature of your heart. The nurse is right! You would be an excellent support group leader. You keep positive through any situation and you never let things get the best of you. There aren't too many of us with that kind of strength. Oh sure sometimes the universe needs to send a little wake up call....but point is, you get it. A person could learn alot from you. I know I have.
True. -No one likes a whiner.
However, some occasionally have moments of being right in their complaining. I mean, the whole "hasn't my life been screwed over and ruined enough as it is??? -Now something ELSE to make things worse???" thought is sometimes a very RIGHT thing to think. -And definately a human reaction. I can't think of ANYONE who has never ever complained, or whined, about something at least once.
However, as we get older and wiser, we find ways to complain, without whining, because no one will EVER know that something is wrong with you, if you don't TELL them that something is wrong with you.
Personally, I don't knock prayer because I'd rather see someone praying than committing crimes. However, I personally can't remember EVER having a prayer request granted to me by God, or any church, since beginning to pray at age 4.
-And, prayer certainly didn't save the little Everest girl who died because her parents chose to pray, rather than getting her to a doctor to be treated for diabetes. (Yahoo News - Friday, 3/28/08) -Unless, of course, her parents prayed to not get convicted, for not seeking help from God's people instead.
I'm not so sure God intended for prayer to be anything other than praise and thanks to him for making it through another day. -And, maybe making some requests and questions, without any vain expectations of God Almighty.
-The power of prayer, indeed.
Personally, I wish well for people who are good-natured and nice. -And I'll wish long before I pray for their well being. -For about 35 years, I've never seen a prayer of mine ever do any good for anyone I've ever prayed for.
Never seemed to help me either...
-But man, it felt good to get it off my chest.
You would be a great support group leader. You make people feel comfortable to talk to you and you listen. I hope that if I ever have a serious condition I can be as strong as you.
Now go read my post about Leann!!
Projecting positivity returns it, as does projecting negativity. Our physical bodies and minds are fragile pieces of equipment and though some chose to treat what they are given better than others, we are often reminded of our fragility in circumstances such as those folks who learn how much time remains of their shelf-life. It's almost unfortunate that we can conceive of time, because I think without it, many of us would think more like you do Michelle. Without it, we might be tempted to think about what we can do in the here and now, and not the what-is-to-come or what-hasn't-been. Life flows like a river and though it is good to try and steer away from the rocks, and to learn from the past, it is best to live now, in a time and place where we can most affect ourselves and others.
I had a friend once who worked in the Oncology Unit of a major children's hospital in Toronto. You want sad? I cried every time I went there to visit. But you know what affected me most about those visits? The children cancer patients tended to be the ones with the greatest attitudes towards life. Many of them would not survive and yet they found ways to project purpose and positivity towards those of us who would survive for many years longer. Life doesn't have to be long to have purpose, nor does in have to be easy. We can chose to complain or we can chose to struggle and not worry about the haves and the have-nots... in all senses of the word.
And with regards to praying. Well from what I know, it says right in the bible to never test God. So for those who feel their prayers have never been answered, well... we're not really supposed to expect them to be. I thought people were supposed to pray for forgiveness, and for thanks... humble human thanks. "Thank you god for providing me with these experiences, they are tough ones God, however I have learned great things from them." God, doesn't want requests, he wants to see his Children grow, you know, work for their allowance instead of just giving to them. He's trying to teach us to fish, so don't be surprised when he just doesn't hand you a fish because you prayed for one.
Anyways, I'm not religious, I don't pray in the traditional sense. Organized Religion and I don't get along at all. BUT, I do believe in a higher power and I think we are all connected to each other by this life, this love we have for each other. Many of us have forgotten that we are so very closely connected, but you haven't Michelle.
Anyways, sorry to go on so much, it's just this is what I've been saying to you all along. You have something many do not: empathy. And so I also believe you would handle the role of support group leader exceptionally well. The very fact that you can go beyond your own circumstance with such grace is a clue to that. Being humble and being open to other's feelings of frustration and pain is called is important in that role and yes, again, you have it... empathy. That is a crucial beginning. I think if I knew you as a personal real-world friend I would be purposefully overstepping my bounds to urge you to try it out. Maybe with just a few people over coffee somewhere. You are a lovely, spirited, person and it would only benefit other people, and even yourself.
love, Mich.
Oops...the last part of my comment above should have read
"Being humble and being open to other's feelings of frustration and pain is called caring and is important in that role-- and yes, again, you have it... empathy."
my apologies, I'm prone to editing errors at 4:30a.m.
I always view life as a roller coaster, you ride it up and you ride it down, and you ride it right through to the end. Whenever I have been faced with a serious health issue, I also think, it has to be someone, why not me? We just deal with whatever the best you can. Being stoic helps obviously!
You should start that group - you have a lot to give others, and they obviously open up to you as well. Things don't happen without a reason you know!